So...here goes....
1.) Being Stubborn Gets You Know Where.
I've learned this for quite some time now, but it's been more predominant throughout these past couple of weeks. I can be honest and say that I can be and have been hard headed in the past. It's the least of my worries out of the flaws that I do have, but it's something that I continual try to learn from. You have to learn how to pick and choose your battles. There isn't anything wrong with standing your ground and being stuck in your ways, but you have to learn how to compromise. And if your THAT stubborn that you can't even do that...agree to disagree and keep it moving.
2.) Growth and Maturity Takes You a Long Way
I actually had a conversation today with someone that I use to be really good friends with years ago. And it felt good being able to talk to them. I'v had my reservations about them at first when they first initially contacted me, because I still had the mindset that they were the same person I knew years ago. I had to realize that people do change. And although I do not have to be buddy/buddy with them, I can carry on a conversation, have some laughs, but just be cautious.When I think back on it now, we stopped talking for some stupid reasons. Mainly because I think they were following a lead of another person. It's just nice to see how someone has grown and matured. Including myself in the situation. There was a moment in time where I really could have cared less whether I talked to individuals that I've cut out of my life every again. Although there are still some people that I still do feel that way about, I have gotten to the point where I can forgive, but not necessarily forget, and keep it moving.
3.) Everyone Has Their Own Breaking Point...
I found myself making a hard emotional decision last week, but it had to be done. The type of personality that I have is that I am a forgiving person (maybe too forgiving at times apparently). I have a big heart, and I will do ANYTHING for the people that I love. I'm a fighter. A fighter of friendship....a fighter for family....a fighter of love. But sometimes, you get to a point where you are tired of fighting based on how that person is treating you. I got tired of a certain individual making me feel like I was the scum of the Earth. (sounds a bit dramatic right? Trust me...this phrase suits them EXACTLY). Just making me feel like I was this horrible person. And I'm far from that. It got disappointing when I thought of all the things that I put up with and tolerated, and now as soon as I act human, and maybe even crossed the line a little, it's the point of no return. And it's really unfair in my opinion. With this specific situation, you CANNOT make someone see something when they are hell bent on what they choose to focus on. It's literally like fighting/talking to a brick wall--you will get NO WHERE and all that energy has now been wasted. It's really sad and unfortunate. I even caught myself this morning waking up in disbelief, like "You REALLY can't be serious about this...SERIOUSLY". Lol. And I felt crazy at first because this is EXACTLY what I was saying to myself out loud. And I'm still in disbelief, but I honestly can't have someone in my life that will sit there and judge me and not FOCUS on WHO I AM and WHAT I'VE DONE even past the situation. I just don't get that...but I digress. Don't get me wrong, this person isn't the devil or anything. Lol. I don't hate them, and I still love them. They were pretty awesome to me. I say that they WERE instead of IS because it feels like I don't even know who they are anymore. I will miss that person's presence in my life, the friendship, and the person who I thought they were, but they have showed me that the things that I have done and tolerated from them was all in vain, and it honestly makes me feel stupid and dumb for even putting up with all that I did. But hey...you live and you learn right?
4.) No Matter How Alone I May Feel...I'm Never Alone.
Over the past week I've had some great conversations with a few of my close female friends. It's just empowering to me to see/hear about their struggle, their growth and strength. It's just confirmation that I'm not alone in this thing we call life, and like me, they go through or HAVE gone through the same things that I have. It's one thing when adults like your own mother, aunt, or grandmother try to give you life advice about things based on their experiences...which isn't a problem at all because they have been there done that and who better to get advice from someone who has years of experience hurt, pain, happiness,etc. It just means more to me when I hear the same exact things from my friends, because I know that I am not the only person going through it. I know I'm always saying this to you all ( my friends that is), but never forget how much I truly appreciate you all!!!!! I can't say that enough! :-)
Well, there you have it. Some thing that I have learned from the weeks leading up to today. I hope you can take something out of this. Even if you can't, I still appreciate you guys taking the time out to read.
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